Right naoo,

i feel like buying a pair of shades and going to the seaside. Been ages since i've ran into the sea and felt sand under my feet. Daddy, Bali/Pangkor Laut please <3
I'm jealous cos my best friend just bought a pint of Baskin Robbins. Had lunch with Sarah and Eunice today (Y). Gossiped a lil during DBS, had dinner at Setia Eco Park and played with a 3 year old Josiah. He's so kiut, showing me his muscles while eating and played peek a boo. Wasn't such a bad day afterall.
I want my prom to be themed masquerade, just a thought :D

Opinions matter, don't they?

"Omg, why are they all 4 inch? D:"
"it's okay what, you still can wear"
"Yeah, and be taller than the whole world hahaha"

It's a phase, where sometimes you just gotta shut up cos your opinions just don't matter and is not needed. And words are just the scariest things ever hahaha. Talk less and your problems are pretty much solved huh?
There's a phase when your countless sorry's just don't count for anything. No matter how many times you repeat it, people don't see the value in it, and your just wasting your saliva.

When you're just so fed-up of everything that's happening, there's a time when you just completely shut down, not caring about whatever opinions people are giving. Like what language i should use on my own blog. Sure, when people read my blog they're first impression is that i'm disrespectful and shit. But hey, it's my blog, my thoughts, so.. go away hahaha.

Opinions, what people think of you, what you think about yourself, what you think of others. It's frustrating, tiring, and pretty upsetting sometimes.

It's not an emo night, it's just frustrating. That lil comments throw my whole day under a storm cloud. That lil things like msn not working on a Friday night.


Money Is Not A Thing- Chase Holfelder :D

Zonked.

Usual Wednesday with added chit chat till my stomach grumbled and added lectures to everyone. Mom much :( Past few days have been filled with thought (i don't usually reflect on what i do so it's been pretty heavy LOL) Inbox yesterday reached up to 70+ items which has been the most so far and i was surprised people i thought would never care, actually do. I've been called insecure too, hahaha. It all goes back to choice of friends now, doesn't it

Recently got ticked off when my 2 year best friend never told me what's been happening HAHA. 5 minute chat with Dele, it was good :') i miss her.

Just finished reading Book of Tomorrow by Cecelia Ahern. And it's probably why i'm on Facebook, etc. It's been confusing, scarily exciting, sad and.. vulgar. What a whirlwind. No more Ahern books for quite some time, HAHA.

Just realised my blog lacks colour, hmm. Today's YE cards, previous late nights (and i mean 12.30, late for moi) and excessive use of brain for self-thought has got me zonked. it's 10.15 and i'm already dying slowly. Dental Care-Owl City (Y) p/s: i don't only listen to Owl City, dammit, i just like the song, it's cute :D

Proud.

Honestly, i don't think i'm a very demanding child, am i?
i don't remember constantly begging for items besides going out or attempting to catch for a movie. I'm usually too proud to say sorry, i'll be honest and i'll lock myself in the room for the whole night when i get into an argument. Give me contacts and i'll shut up, seriously. My mom has already screamed the answer in my face 20 minutes ago saying i'm a spoilt brat, and i really wanna ask her what's her definition of being spoilt. And if my mom says no, there's a tough chance of having a decent conversation with my dad without getting dulan. I swear often nowadays, tsk not good.
Anyways, it was a good, short Monday

Northern Downpour

Have't heard that in agess.
Monday- Faked sick, leaked a fake tear and skipped school.
Tuesday- Forgot what i did.
Wednesday- YE.
Thursday- Heard BU4's gossip about girls >(
Friday- Pulled bestie's hair, lied to bestie, tricked my bestie and made bestie dulan. Talked to ashie, skipped 20 minutes of tuition, bitched about underaged people. Dulan mom. Mom asked me to get out of the house. Teared over the phone like i drank too much, learned a new word, repeated a wall post twice to my bestie cos i like it so much. Missed Malam Bakat. And had a retarded conv with Jon.

yelenaww says:
is this jon?
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NAH
COOOLER
Jon. va bene says:
..!..
yelenaww says:
ewh
Jon. va bene says:
..!.. -.- ..!..
yelenaww says:
cool
Jon. va bene says:
omg. lets stop this topic. it's so inane
yelenaww says:
idk what inane is so..
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o zero o
Jon. va bene says:
iask you how youve been and you give me the finger
good to see you too ele
yelenaww says:
:)



Gangster? Mofo wei feng HAHA.

"Decent."

A word i should use more often when people ask me how's my day hahaha. It's been a pretty eventful day, hearing the sounds of Germany and Spain at least 234 times, feeling stoner-ish during handball and ignoring Jia Wei's comment that i've only held the ball once during the entire game (what's new huh?), yelling/cursing at Bryan, telling Krystle that i'm not her dog. Skipped class a lil' and helped stick cellotape on the dynamite hairbands, got glitter all over and had a screamy chat with Zian and Aly when we couldn't hear each other over the rain. Walked to 7E in the rain and thanks to Jee, the YE stuff didn't get wet <3 Got home, showered, ate a cheese sandwich and curled up in bed reading. Thunder nowadays has gotten so fierce, seriously >(

i HAVE to go cheer, dammit. :( shamefully it'll be my first year -.- and i probably wont even be going this week because "9am-7pm is too long" and because i don't wanna go home by myself using the Lrt D: i hate thissss. I wish i was Craig who has a reason he's not going to cheer, cos he's grounded for a month. uhhh.

Okay, I TAKE THAT BACK.

Why i love my fridays:

Simply because they're don't-care-days. Days when my table is messier than usual, or my room is messier than usual. Days when you don't have to worry about waking up early, though i do have piano tmr morning, ugh. And fridays usually turn out to be the best schooling day, idk why. Like today! :) After much chit chat, decided to join classmates for badminton. Fridays also seem like exercise-days LOL. I felt like a meanie though cos i ditched Ash, YES ASHIE I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS. Man, we were about to spin the 100plus can for the 3rd/4th time when mom came :/ i dont care, another badminton & yam cha session next fridaaaay. Spilling secrets among sarah and ashie is scary o: hahaha. Add math was just a bore, didn't understand anything. MSN was another happy thing today too :D ! And i notice i blog soo frequently nowadays, which is weird in a funny way.

Right now i'm using my sister's laptop and talking to E-way about Hotel City. Or more like insulting each other's hotels HAHA. Probably the longest conversation i'm having with him o: Thank goodness my mom didn't go for Open Day. If she did, she wouldn't only be lecturing me about going out for lunches on Wednesdays :/ Last night i practically nodded the whole way when my parents kept saying i'm easily influenced and blah blah blah. But for the first time i actually understood what they were saying hahaha. Sentences like "setting your own principles" or "earning your trust" flowed out like water. I've skipped two days of school this week, proud? :) in no mood to start bio experiment. All i wanna do is watch Toy Story 3, or change my dad's guitar strings. Or scout for new songs. And i really wanna go Bali, for no reason. Ah, i'll just stick to the possible, continue my conversation with E-way who is asking me what does grammatically challenged mean. Baii